It was five years ago this week our great adventure that is Life with Super D began.
Yesterday a memory popped up in Facebook reminding me of that week. Five years ago we were visiting with neurologists and having numerous test done. Five years ago I posted this on Facebook:
“More tests today and another stay in the hospital tonight. The doc is sure it is epilepsy, but it is treatable”
I look back on this simple statement and thank God I did not know then what I know now. Five years ago this was a bump in the road, one we could throw some medicine at and everything would be back to normal. Little did we know fire years later we would still be attempting to treat something that is not treatable, or at least not yet. The go to seizure treatments did not work, so we moved on to things which had a greater risk of side affects. Still no treatment works for an extended period of time. Surgery is not an option as the seizures are not confined to one part of the brain. A neuro stimulator may work, but there are chances for serious complications.
Until we find the key to controlling Super D’s seizures, we will celebrate the good days and mourn the 
bad. Either way we will praise God.
Five years ago today I had posted this picture, taken in a hospital room at Children’s Mercy here in Kansas City. The caption said “SMILES ARE BACK!!!”. Five years ago we experienced a roller coaster of emotions, from the sorrow and pain of hearing Daniel has epilepsy to the joy of seeing something a simple as a smile. That is how the last five years have been. Sorrow and pain followed by great joy. Nothing on this earth says everything will be ok quicker than a smile from this sweet angel or a big hug from my super hero.
Through it all we have been forced to grow. This type of thing is not something which can be ignored. It is also not something mankind is able to endured alone. The last five years have tested our faith. God has continually given us more than we can handle so we could learn trust and to give our struggles over to Him. It is through those test and trials that we have grown stronger and closer to God. We are not special people. We are no different than anyone else. God has blessed us differently than others.
Yes, I see the last five years as a blessing. I have seen God do things and move in ways many will never have the chance to. That is a blessing. I also see the world differently than I did five years ago. Don’t get me wrong, if I had my way Daniel would not suffer for God to be glorified. My ways are sinful and taken from a finite view of things. God sees the beginning from the end and, even though it does not make sense to me, He has a great work that required the last five years and the years to come. Regardless of the outcome, He is in control, not me. There is great freedom that comes from that fact.
I remain confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord. – Psalm 27:13-14
Life With Super D! 